Disappointed
Awhile ago I found out one of my friends took ecstasy, I was like wow, but that was kinda it ‘cause I wasnt exactly really close. Last night on the other hand I found out one of my former best friends took it. I was speechless, it was like O_O whaaaa the fack?!!! I didnt know you were that stupid to risk your life for a good feel. Be with someone that makes you feel like that, dont go for the drugs. Im crying for you now, I dont talk to you for the longest time and I find out you take drugs. Seriously, WHAT. THE. F@CK. Well Ive never tried it, so I might not understand, but Im really scared for you. I just want to go and scream at you: WHO THE HELL ARE YOU? It’s like I dont even know you anymore, if I ever knew you… I miss talking to you, being your friend, and I wish I had more than just memories.
Ive been looking the effects and stuff about ecstasy, Im worried for you.
I stayed up to talk to you ‘cause you wanted someone to talk to. That one night you wanted to talk about death I wrote this after:
“tick tock,
times up.
don’t spend your time frivolously,
every second past will never be regained.
and every second will build up to a minute,
to the rest of your life.
however you see death,
i dont mind.
but it will get to you someday,
maybe sooner maybe later.
tick tock,
tick tock,
swings the pendulum clock.
do you feel it?
a slowly building weight
on top of your precious, fragile shoulders.
years upon years tumble downwards,
making your labored shoulders shake even more.
tick tock.
a warning
of when your time is to come
like all other masses.
the time when we line up like cattle
waiting to be slaughtered
are you ready for your time to end?
tock tock
tick tock
swings the pendulum clock”
Dont want to lose you for real.
